My Amelia found mama's new stash of books. Its been a long time I havent bought any new books or downloaded e-books. Nearly two years ago exactly as around same time last year my usual bookstore where I had an order of my monthly magazines kept on calling me saying my back orders of few months of books needed to be collected or they will make a special delivery to me to the hopspital. I understood with emphaty my usual store assistant whom I became friend with was worried about me but also she was worried that she had to forked out my books from her pay that was very expensive. From then on I had cancel all my magazines and no longer on their calling lists for new books in store.
Reading reminises me to the days i would curled up beside hubby while he was reading his literatures or researching for his resources. I am his proof reader, I am his editor and I drafted the words into sentences whenever he had an epiphany for his work.
You read to get out of your world of reality. Be in the world that the writer had spun for their hero or heroine. But when your life resemble or was given trials upon trials of events that tested beyond the endurance of your mind to an extend of kneeling down to your knees asking for god why me? I stop reading as my life colour more than the books I read. But as Ustaz Sheik Ali Jabbir told me two years ago to put faith in allah love and his devine plan for my life. He told me to pray for duha just as the sun is nearly at noon as that is when allah will give and granted through his love regardless how much sinned we had committed for he is the all forgiving and loving. Thank you to my new friend that I call kaka whom miraclously entered in my life and bring sheik just by hubby bed to recite the most beautiful duaa for him just hours before he left me. "Putting faith in action is about believing and achieving"(Nick Vujivic). As I read through, it say that we need faith to go through in this life. We only have one life to live in this temporary duniya. Put faith in yourself, you can go beyond your strength of limits, trust me I was there a few times but most importantly to place your faith and belief in God loving grace for his divine plan for you