2024 had left us. Today we are setting foot into January 2025. The New Year. Looking back 9 years ago. When our life was given a reset button. When the world we had known collapse. I myself didn't see the 'hikmah' or silver lining behind our tragedy. At one time I told the creator why me? Why my daughters? Why can't our daughters be like other children? Why robbed their father from them? Then I suddenly remembered around two months before their father passed away, we sat down together on a bench outside his hospital ward and he told me 'tani sangka baik saja sayang' translating we must always think the goodness in everything that had happen my love. That time I had not known the concept of Hudnuzon, where in Islam, when we believe that we have positive thinking about someone, something, even towards Allah swt, we called as Husnuzon. This concept is very important to do because we'll get many benefits from it.
Beginnings are scary; endings are usually sad. But it's the middle that counts the most. You need to remind yourself of that when you find yourself at the beginning. Just give hope a chance to float up. And it will, too.
"Ya allah aku tidak punya apapun yang dapat aku tunjukkan. Namun aku berharap Engkau menyukai salah satu kebaikkanku, walaupun kebanyakkan yang ku miliki adalah dosa."
Only allah swt knew what wrong paths I had walk throughout these years to be who I am today. Paths that I dare not said to my girls. The wrongs that I knew I should not do but Allah love me so much that he had pulled me back to the right path.
Ya Allah please heal the pains that I cannot discuss but only to you.
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